It has been forever since my last true update about travel, what I've been doing, and how things are going... so I feel it is time to catch the blog up to date... be warned... THIS COULD GET LENGTH-Y.
It's a rainy day here in Fethiye, I have soup heating on our stove, and Matthew has gone out in the rain to pick us up our "friday pizza date" pizzas. We are paying 10 dollars a night/per person for our own private studio apartment with a fridge, stove top, and balcony with a view of the sea and surrounding mountains. This is the first time we have had privacy in MONTHS, and we are enjoying it beyond what words can describe.
We are enjoying it so much that we have pretty much locked ourselves up in this room, and only go out to pick up groceries or water. We have been in Fethiye for two weeks. Though people barely speak English, most of the time, they are extremely nice and helpful. This place is like paradise.
As we reach the tail end of our trip (we have entered our last month), thoughts of home and what my life will be like constantly enter my head. I don't try to think too hard on the answer to this, but I have learned a lot while travelling, and have lived different mini-lifestyles in each city we have stayed in, and I know I have a clearer idea of who I am, and what makes me happy and passionate.
It really is a huge coincidence that we ended up in Fethiye; I will spare you the story, but a series of events have caused us to have the ability to remain here longer than we originally anticipated... but to be honest, and you'll excuse my spirituality here, I feel the universe wanted us to stay here in this quiet, happy, beautiful city by the sea. I truly believe that.
The hectic travel lifestyle was definitely an interesting experience, but bunk beds, shared bathrooms and kitchens, and always being surrounded by hussle and bussle, and literally having your sleep interrupted every single night starts to really wear you down. You really don't have time to think; you are constantly forced to interract, meet people, and go, go, go.
Fethiye has offered us something we didn't even know we needed... stillness. Oh my god... stillness. I haven't seen that in YEARS! When was the last time where you literally spent a week learning to cook, coloring pictures, watching television, and day-dreaming without having some "TO-DO LIST" quietly hassling you? For me, its been years. And this has been LUXURY.. I mean, no hot shower, and we wash our dishes with body wash... but LUXURY!
I may not know what exactly life has in store for me, but I have let go of this "GOTTA GET STUFF DONE. THERE'S NO TIME TO STOP, MUST GO GO GO GO GO" attitude that I held onto for so long. It was suffocating me, not allowing me to truly think about the things that really matter. I have been exploring things that I have been too busy/too proud to stop and enjoy since my teenage years, and I am feeling more passionate, more happy, and more ALIVE, like truly present, than I have since childhood. I feel like the haze has vanished, and I can clearly see what happiness is for myself.
The best part is that we get to (hopefully) enjoy this CHILL-PILL life-style for another week, and I am going to make sure I remember how important this is, so I can bring this lesson home with me. I must STOP with the desire to be busy and distracted, and must enjoy life thoroughly, because it's the only one I have, and there may be nothing on the other side once my final day approaches.
For those who may be interested, this is what I have been doing:
(because I am not encouraging people to become a couch potato, but rather, to look for inspiration, and to just stop and enjoy being alive. I now see it's the best way for passion to reach the surface.)
Learning to draw manga, anime, and realism. I want to make my own original characters and make a "graphic novel" of some sort... or sell some stuff online.
Watching DIGIMON on youtube... you must watch this show, it is way better than pokemon, way better character development, season 2 gets really good, ill post a link:
I have been day-dreaming of the fun things I want to do with this blog once I get home, and have resources... and costumes. ;)
Day-dreaming the next things to cross off the bucket list. Indulge in what makes you feel alive and passionate.
I have been re-arranging our home mentally, we want to make it an awesome hang out place where we can focus on all of our hobbies like drawing, knitting, video editing, and enjoying life.
And I have been thinking a lot about my parents, family, friends, co-workers, and clients (I bet every single one of you has entered my head more than once), and how appreciative I truly am, and how BLESSED I am to have the life and love I do.
So Happy Thanksgiving to everyone!
Lots of love from Fethiye, Turkey. :)
Cute!
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